Je was op zoek naar: やはり初めのように醜かった (Japans - Engels)

腹にはいっても、腹にはいった事が知れず、やはり初めのように醜かった。ここでわたしは目が覚めた。
and when they had eaten them up, it could not be known that they had eaten them; but they were still ill favoured, as at the beginning. so i awoke.

矢張り [やはり]
i miss you too